Hi everybody
Firstly let me say a huge thank you to all of you who are reading my blog and must have wondered if I was still alive and kicking!
Well, as you can see I am (well maybe not so much the kicking with these knees)
If I tell you it's taken me over half an hour just to get on here this morning as my laptop seems to have gone on strike, I'm now running late for work, there's a pile of paperwork I should have dealt with before I even go to work and I'm straight off to a meeting after work tonight then maybe that gives you an idea of why I'm so frustrated in my attempts to find time to write.
I know I'm normally pretty busy but over the last few months it seems to have got worse - and not in a good way. I'm so time poor for doing the things I'm passionate about, the things I feel are my real purpose for being here that the frustration has been building.
So, as I've learnt over the years the answer is as the old hymn says, 'take it to God in prayer'.
So, that's what I've been doing.
The only thing with prayer is we expect God to answer in a way and at a time that suits us. You'd have thought by now I'd know better............!
Although I've been asking for more time I have to work 5 days a week to pay the bills (well in my tiny mind that's how it seems)
So - how was God going to solve my problem? Promotion so I could cut down to 3 days a week maybe? A rich relative dying and leaving me lots of money? A mystery benefactor?
No - recent restructuring at work means my job is disappearing - and soon. Simple really - the thing which least fulfills me, motivates me and gives me a sense of purpose is no longer a problem.
Er - 'Dear Lord, thank you for answering my prayer and giving me lots more time - great. One slight tiny concern I have - if you don't mind me pointing it out - it does mean I won't have any money coming in to pay the rent, buy food, put petrol in the car etc etc. Any ideas?'
Now at this point you might expect one of those wonderful stories about how the phone rings and someone offers you your dream job. Well, maybe that will happen but it hasn't yet. Neither has any rich relative suddenly materialised to my knowledge.
But you know what - I can honestly say I am not worried. I feel very peaceful and even excited and expectant about the future. Of course I have been looking for other jobs but for most of my life I've thought in terms of working, building a career and then fitting in around that the things I enjoy, the things which give me a buzz, my passions and interests. There have been many times in the past I've had to rely heavily on my faith as you'll know from my previous blog posts but for the first time in my life I think I really understand what it is to take a real step of faith.To choose to rely totally on God and his will for me.
I have come to realise over the past year I've needed to change my way of thinking to say 'OK, Lord I want to serve you 24/7. I want to put my time, energy, talents and passion in your hands and to be the best I can be - for You. That truly is a purposeful life lived.' As long as I concentrate on that I know He will take care of the rest. So I'm not getting into the frantic panic at work about what to do secure one of the places which will be open to me.
I'll continue to pray, my friends will contiune to pray and at the right time, in the right way God will reveal His plans for me. And to be honest, putting my trust in Him makes a lot more sense to me than any other career advice I've ever had.
We always have a verse of the year at our church and I'm going to leave you with that as I really have got to get going as I still have a job for a few weeks . Little did I know how significant this was going to be..............
'Trust in him at all times. O people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge'
Psalm 62:8
Lord - I'm pouring, oh boy am I pouring..................:-)
God bless - be back soon
Jules x
Firstly let me say a huge thank you to all of you who are reading my blog and must have wondered if I was still alive and kicking!
Well, as you can see I am (well maybe not so much the kicking with these knees)
If I tell you it's taken me over half an hour just to get on here this morning as my laptop seems to have gone on strike, I'm now running late for work, there's a pile of paperwork I should have dealt with before I even go to work and I'm straight off to a meeting after work tonight then maybe that gives you an idea of why I'm so frustrated in my attempts to find time to write.
I know I'm normally pretty busy but over the last few months it seems to have got worse - and not in a good way. I'm so time poor for doing the things I'm passionate about, the things I feel are my real purpose for being here that the frustration has been building.
So, as I've learnt over the years the answer is as the old hymn says, 'take it to God in prayer'.
So, that's what I've been doing.
The only thing with prayer is we expect God to answer in a way and at a time that suits us. You'd have thought by now I'd know better............!
Although I've been asking for more time I have to work 5 days a week to pay the bills (well in my tiny mind that's how it seems)
So - how was God going to solve my problem? Promotion so I could cut down to 3 days a week maybe? A rich relative dying and leaving me lots of money? A mystery benefactor?
No - recent restructuring at work means my job is disappearing - and soon. Simple really - the thing which least fulfills me, motivates me and gives me a sense of purpose is no longer a problem.
Er - 'Dear Lord, thank you for answering my prayer and giving me lots more time - great. One slight tiny concern I have - if you don't mind me pointing it out - it does mean I won't have any money coming in to pay the rent, buy food, put petrol in the car etc etc. Any ideas?'
Now at this point you might expect one of those wonderful stories about how the phone rings and someone offers you your dream job. Well, maybe that will happen but it hasn't yet. Neither has any rich relative suddenly materialised to my knowledge.
But you know what - I can honestly say I am not worried. I feel very peaceful and even excited and expectant about the future. Of course I have been looking for other jobs but for most of my life I've thought in terms of working, building a career and then fitting in around that the things I enjoy, the things which give me a buzz, my passions and interests. There have been many times in the past I've had to rely heavily on my faith as you'll know from my previous blog posts but for the first time in my life I think I really understand what it is to take a real step of faith.To choose to rely totally on God and his will for me.
I have come to realise over the past year I've needed to change my way of thinking to say 'OK, Lord I want to serve you 24/7. I want to put my time, energy, talents and passion in your hands and to be the best I can be - for You. That truly is a purposeful life lived.' As long as I concentrate on that I know He will take care of the rest. So I'm not getting into the frantic panic at work about what to do secure one of the places which will be open to me.
I'll continue to pray, my friends will contiune to pray and at the right time, in the right way God will reveal His plans for me. And to be honest, putting my trust in Him makes a lot more sense to me than any other career advice I've ever had.
We always have a verse of the year at our church and I'm going to leave you with that as I really have got to get going as I still have a job for a few weeks . Little did I know how significant this was going to be..............
'Trust in him at all times. O people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge'
Psalm 62:8
Lord - I'm pouring, oh boy am I pouring..................:-)
God bless - be back soon
Jules x
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