I can't believe it's been nearly a week since I started this blog. Time really does fly when you're having fun (or not as the case may be!). I've just been spending time adding pictures and other info to this blog.
I've always enjoyed learning but I'm what I call a practical learner. I've never been one for sitting in class (couldn't bear the thought of going to university and attending lectures), never read the instructions, and am always impatient when someone is trying to show me how to do something. Impatient and curious would be a good way of describing my approach to learning; so fiddling around with fonts, colours, pictures and links is my idea of fun. I've got a laptop which is rapidly becoming as attached to me as my mobile 'phone! It feels weird when it's turned off, as if I'm going to miss something important. Fortunately I love the company of people as well so don't shut myself away in seclusion just inhabiting some surreal virtual world because I can't cope with the real one!
Talking of the real world I received a letter this week which was not unnexpected. Having been on Incapacity Benefit for 8 months (serious illness, long recovery) the powers that be have decided I no longer qualify. Ok - fair enough, I am a lot better and have been thinking myself about doing some part time paid work. Like most people I don't like being on benefits (despite the view of some I believe many people genuinely would like to be paying their own way) but have little option. So as I said, the letter wasn't unnexpected, but what came as a bit of a shock was the letter was dated 4th June and the benefit stopped as of 3rd! OK - so now what what do I do?
I sort of expected some notice (naively as it turned out!) but that's obviously not the way it's done. I duly went off to the Jobcentre and signed on for jobseekers allowance but still find it hard to believe one minute I'm receiving IB and the next I'm having to agree to look for jobs up to 40 hours a week and be prepared to travel 90 mins to work on public transport! If I had been working for an employer after that length of time off a phased return to work would have almost certainly been offered. I've never been out of work for long and I know there are many, many people out there in a much worse situation than me but at least this experience will make me a little more sympathetic to those looking for work and having to rely on the government.
There have been things over the past couple of weeks which could have really got me down. I'm not saying I don't get fed up or even upset at times (just ask my friend who's shoulder I was sobbing all over last week!) but I have a best friend I try and spend time with every day. I usually wake fairly early so get up and make a cuppa then go back to bed. I talk to him, think about him, and read his book. I've known him for many years but only recently feel as if I've really met him. Sometimes when I'm feeling worried, low or just need a hug, I feel him sit on the side of the bed and put his arm round me - I can then close my eyes and rest my head on his shoulder. I'll share more with you about my friend as time goes on but for now I'll just tell you his name - you may even have heard of him. He's called Jesus.
God Bless - Jules x
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